mid summer check in * kinda chaotic *

whoo 2020 needs to c h i l l out and it doesn’t help that its summer! the time for relaxing and sitting in front of the air conditioner for hours is here and i am ๐“ต๐“ฒ๐“ฟ๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ฐ for it – yes please.

i sit on my beanbag and realize that quite literally one month of my summer has decided to hop on a car and drive away at 200 miles per hour.

i only have one more month of summer left.

one more month

so for the first time i’ve actually thought about my summer and goodness gracious …


หš ใ€€ใ€€ใ€€ใ€€ใ€€ ใ€€ โŠน ใ€€ ใ€€ ใ€€ใ€€ใ€€ ใ€€ ยทใ€€ * ใ€€ใ€€ โœงใ€€ใ€€ใ€€ โ‹† ใ€€ใ€€ ยท * . ยท . ใ€€      ใ€€ ยท ยทใ€€ ใ€€ใ€€ใ€€ใ€€ใ€€..  ใ€€

๐š ๐š‘๐šŠ๐š ๐š’’๐šŸ๐šŽ ๐š‹๐šŽ๐šŽ๐š— ๐š๐š˜๐š’๐š—๐š

nothing. frankly this list should be quite short ( because i really have been doing almost nothing ) ~ moment of silence for a once again procrastinating ~

โ€ listening to a lot of music – on those rare occasions where my phone does not get taken away i jump at the chance to read some fanfiction listen to music. normally i use pandora since i prefer it over spotify but since wordpress only supports spotify:

usually i have about 15 – 16 songs on my playlist because i keep changing very often ( and some days i listen to one on repeat – it gets annoying ). however some songs on my playlist are explicit so i’ve removed them.

ยป [ hey let’s procrastinate ] ยซ

8:47:46 โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ใ€‡โ”€ 10:14:02

โ‡„   โ—ƒโ—ƒ   โ… โ…    โ–นโ–น   โ†ป

โ€ writing – it does sound weird when i say i’m trying to write a novel. im currently at 45k+ words which took so much time to write ( my longest stories used to be 5k words )! i usually publish chapters on quotev @starry dreamer: Where the Middlemist Red Blooms

its blurred ahhh no – i wasn’t thinking when i made the cover literally i put ‘StarryDreamer’ as the name what-


Shortly after the death of her father, a girl finds his favorite flowers, the rare Middlemist Red on his grave. She goes on a journey to learn who placed the flowers there, and more importantly what role they played in her father’s past.

โžน โžน โžน

if you do read it ( which would be greatly appreciated! ) just ignore like the first 20 chapters ok – well maybe don’t but i promise you my writing improves – แตแต’แต’แตˆโฟแต‰หขหข แตสณแตƒแถœโฑแต’แต˜หข and i call myself a writer

โ€ remodeling my blog – for those who were here when my blog was called pasionspired ( ew – if you weren’t there lucky you ) you can see the difference ( honestly though ) :

not so monstrosityress

๐“ฒ๐“ถ๐“น๐“ป๐“ธ๐“ฟ๐“ฎ๐“ถ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฝ !

yay! there was no way i would be able to fix my old blog theme so i decided to completely throw it away and start anew – and would ya look at that. kinda crazy that it took a week to finish everything ( even now im finding small mistakes that need to be fixed gah ), but it was worth it!

โ€ sleeping when i feel like it – it can’t be new to hear that yet another person ( can’t even act surprised lol ) has a messed up sleep schedule. ะฝ ฯƒ ฮท ั” ั• ั‚ โ„“ ัƒ

Sleep Is for the weak - Patrick | Meme Generator


i kinda just smile at my phone really creepily don’t even

หœโ€ยฐโ€ข.หœโ€ยฐโ€ข ๐Ÿ…ƒ๐Ÿ„ท๐Ÿ„ฐ๐Ÿ…ƒ๐Ÿ…‚ ๐Ÿ„ฐ๐Ÿ„ป๐Ÿ„ป โ€ขยฐโ€หœ.โ€ขยฐโ€หœ

my formatting is all over the place :/ help

ok hey – yeah that list was short but i can get better ( right? ) !

๐š๐šŽ๐š—๐šŽ๐š›๐šŠ๐š• ๐š๐š˜๐šŠ๐š•๐šœ

honestly – it would be very boring to listen to be rant about how i’m not productive AT ALL ( we get it?? ). but i do want to focus on a few areas where i can improve and make the rest of my summer go somewhat smoothly. since this is ‘ in general ‘ anyone can do this! :

  • drink lots of water – so very important and so very missed. i can’t be the only one who decides โ oh i’m going to drink 8 glasses of water โž and then realize at 9 in the night: goodness gracious i forgot and then attempt to drink all 8 glasses of water in one sitting ( ok maybe this is just me but still! )
  • smile more – oh yes the hypocritical girl who tells people to smile but doesn’t ( just screaming hypocrite come on )
  • finish a project – anything: a novel, reading a book, or finishing up a drawing – it’s so satisfying to see it finally finished
  • bujo more – try or not trying to be aesthetic when bullet journalling, it’s a very helpful way to organize your summer ( what am i saying ) and plan ahead ew
  • just read ( not fanfiction ) – if you’re like me who reads an unhealthy amount of fanfiction it’s time to switch to books ( especially after reading so many amazing reviews throughout the blogging community! ) and explore different topics ( haha i wish )

yes there should be more on that list since the road to improvement can be long – but best to take small steps first!

๐šŠ๐š—๐šข๐š ๐šŠ๐šข๐šœ

enough of lists and rambles.

๐š‘๐šŽ๐š›๐šŽ ๐šŠ๐š›๐šŽ ๐šœ๐š˜๐š–๐šŽ > ๐š™๐š˜๐šœ๐š’๐š๐š’๐šŸ๐šŽ < ๐šœ๐š—๐š’๐š™๐š™๐šŽ๐š๐šœ ๐š˜๐š ๐š–๐šข ๐šœ๐šž๐š–๐š–๐šŽ๐š› ๐šœ๐š˜ ๐š๐šŠ๐š›! :

books i’ve read

Spacia: Dawn and Dusk by Eleanor J and it’s sequel Spacia: The Fate of the Galaxies are must reads! Both are light books full of adventure and magic. Read from lulu ( im terrible at book reviews but what im trying to say is: GO READ IT NOWWW! )

Loki: Where Mischief Lies Book | Marvel | shopDisney

Finally something to do with marvel that isn’t fanfiction! I absolutely adored this book and it captures Loki’s character so well. you don’t need to be a marvel fan or have any knowledge of marvel movies to enjoy this read!


i want to give a huge, giant, enormous, thank you to everyone for…

it blows my mind to see 50+ followers so quickly. honestly i thought i would never get this far! so thank you to everyone who supported my blog – even just a simple view. this motivates me to blog not only for the sake of blogging but because people will actually read ( and hopefully get something out of ) my posts!

แ—ทOแ—ท ( Tแ•ผE แ—ทแ’ชOG ) Tแ•ผแ—ฉแ‘ŽKแ”• YOแ‘Œ ๐ŸŽ‰ โค

๐š ๐šŽ๐š•๐š• ๐š ๐šŽ๐š•๐š• ๐š ๐šŽ๐š•๐š• ๐š–๐šข ๐š๐š›๐šŽ๐š—๐šœ

แดกสœแด‡ษด ษช ๊œฑแด€ส แด„สœแด€แดแด›ษชแด„

i meant chaos

i hope you enjoy reading this excuse for a post because yes this was just rambles of my summer haha

please don’t forget to always share your support for the Black Lives Matter community! if you have more links and resources please put them in the comments and i will add them here:

Petitions List 1

Petitions List 2

Support Black Owned Businesses

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More ways to support 1

More ways to support 2

Ways you can help


please remember you are a beautiful, amazing person. i hope you have a lovely rest of your summer โค

48 thoughts on “mid summer check in * kinda chaotic *

  1. This post was so much fun haha. If youโ€™re looking for some light summer reads to draw you out of fan fiction, I recommend Love and Gelato (contemporary romance in Italy), The Penderwicks (summery family story), or Warcross (sci-fi action with a hint of romance). I hope you have a great summer!

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  2. Haha jokes on you all because weโ€™ve only just broken up so I have my whole holidays ahead of meeeeee *is evil cackling appropriate?*
    I was going to say something else but my brain has lost all of its thoughts….letโ€™s go with have a nice summer ๐Ÿ˜

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  3. omg it’s been so long since i last stopped by but i love your new blog name and aesthetic!!! it’s so beautiful ughhh ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜

    “~ moment of silence for a once again procrastinating ~” yup that’s basically me, it’s crazy that we only have one more month?! of summer left?! i love lewis capaldi sm, and i’ll have to check out the rest of your song recs soon!

    omg 45k words!!!!! you are a queen, that’s amazing and i need to catch up on your novel soon โค haha yes i definitely need to drink more water and bujo more ๐Ÿ˜ญ i hope you have a great rest of your summer, good luck with all of your goals!

    (congrats on almost 80 followers you completely deserve it!! ๐Ÿ’–)

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    1. ahhhh hello ash!! i hope you’re doing well! thank you so much, definitely was aiming to be aesthetic *even just a little bit*
      and ugh yes procrastination is the new thinggg. so cool to hear you like lewis capaldi – he’s a GREAT singer and has amazing songs. and again thank you!! i won’t reach like 100k words thats for sure but its pretty solid word count! and no pressure, feel free to read my ‘novel ew’ any time – honestly its pretty bad, it’s going to need a lot of work before it’s actually considered ” done ” haha. and bujo more? girl are you kidding your bujo is perfect gahhhh! thank you for all your support and kind words! have a wonderful summer ash!! โค ๐Ÿ˜€

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  4. Wow this was a chaos!! Your posts didn’t come in my reader…. i really missed your posts!! Your blog is so amazing and aesthetic!! I can’t wait to read your book! Love the cake that you made!! My goals are quite similar to yours! Except that i find it hard to stick to them… lmao. Love you!!

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    1. haha yup! and it’s alright if you miss my posts! thank you so much – and about the book beware of the first 20 chapters ( really very cringy ). and that’s great – i tried to write down some common goals and i can definitely relate on finding it hard to stick to them! lot’s of love โค

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